My name is Juralap, birthname Yurii Lapov, also known as Fritz Glade, Grigorij/Gregory Krashtest, Sajmon (Czerwiaszki), Mike (Michael) Fitz(gerald), and I'm refered to as he/him & they/them. I am AMAB, and my gender-identity is closest to the neologist label 'Demiboy', however I deride and wanton nullify gender as a construct. I am queer, closest described as bi- or pansexual, hovewer I believe all people possess 'queerness' and non-heterocishood.

I selfdescribe as neurodivergent, and selfdiagnose as Autistic S.D., tepidly suspecting ADHD. Officially I had Szchizoid P.D. diagnosed in 2024, but I deride the traits described in it. I subscribe to progressive, far-left politicophilosophical positions, and I'm closest described as a council-Communist, or a libertarian Marxist.

I live in Zielona Gora, Poland, and was born in Zhytomir, Ukraine, in 2005. I'm neither Ukranian nor Polish, as my cultural identity is dissociated and fractured into drives too eclectic for these sociogroups. I also deride and wanton nullification of nationality as a construct, same with race. I speak English, Russian, Ukrainian, and Polish, by proxy I can understand Belarussian, Czech, Interslavic.

For my character; My core is intellectualization. I value logic, frameworks, theories, and systems, sometimes to a fault. I'm patient and open-minded, insofar as I value approaching situations critically and empathetically. I am oftentimes shy, anxious, and closed-off; passive, unmotivated, scared of conflict; all things I wish to forego. At my best I'm a funny presence, at least an interesting one, at my best I say and express things in cool ways and make people feel things, energy. This text is written in a deliberately emphasisedly dry tone and timbre because I am tired.

I am geometrically opposite from all traits from the narcissistic complex. I am humble, shy, selfaware and alert to other's needs. I'm ignorant on many, many things and do not like to speak on things I didn't investigate. The things I say and create are always flawed. I welcome and seek criticism, ruthless criticism! I try to understand everyone using empathy and systemic analysis, I forego Individualism at a very core level.

At a very high level I value nuance and depth. I deride bigotry, dogmas, zealotry, any kind of black-and-white thought. But I do hold 'extreme' positions. This is because truth does not live in the center or in compromise, neither is it neutral, it cannot be.

Emotionally, I am often in a flat affect. I force down anger. I overthink my emotions at every moment, If I express some sentiment I likely do it on purpose. There's a million thoughts in my head and complex chains of reasoning at all times. Wow, even when I sat down to write a paragraph about emotions specifically, it took two sentences to get back to reasoning. This illustrates my pathology! I will cry if you shout at me, If I care about you. I will sublimate my vulnerable expressions into inanimate objects, as I often feel unfit to express them. If I care about you, that's exceptional. It is hard to say how I will feel or act in interaction with others because I do not have enough experience of That. This text lost focus and aura a long time ago. If you're reading this, this is the first draft.

I make electronic music for the Dijital Katarakta project.